152- Time

Time passes so quickly. Before I know it, I'm being so slow and left behind.
I feel like I'm improving at the speed of a snail these days. No, not only these days. For the past few months.

Ages since I blogged about anything. I seem to have less to say nowadays. (on text at the least) I guess I've grown out of complaining and expressing publicly. I'd rather do it through my sketches or not do it at all. After a while I realize that I don't have all the time in the world to be talking about my life. Sitting in front of a laptop screen and typing when I can draw it out. But for the pass few days my hands and mind are not in my favor it seems.

It's good to just come back and type something once in awhile. At least I feel like I still have some English writing skills. (I'd like to think so) Life has been good.

The family's PR has been granted. A huge weight has been lifted of my shoulders. For humans, we never have enough. We're selfish.But I want to be thankful for just this and not worry about any other minor wants in my life. Not being materialistic and just living.

I've been having lots of fun here and there and also going for casual Korean classes. XD
I remember the day I swore to not be interested in Kpop and here I am.

I don't know. I haven't blogged in so long it feels slightly awkward to be typing all of a sudden. I don't even know what to blog about  but I just felt like I haven't filled a page in ages and ages.

Oh well, all I can say is right now..
I'm working, I'm drawing, I'm trying to learn Flash but haven't brought myself to do it, I'm lazy, I'm single and my urge to get married has died down long ago, I don't like texting, I'm turning antisocial at home. Life is pretty good. Except I have to get over this artblock where I feel like everything sucks.

But life is treating me well.

150- New Years Resolution?

I just realised that I haven't posted anything about my New Years or my New Years resolution.
Oh, and there was supposed to be Chinese New Year photos too! Sorry~

After reading Rachael's blog I realised that I haven't made any resolutions for this year yet. I guess because I've been working so much and drawing and drawing that I forgot about the time. Gosh! And it's already Valentine's. This post is around 2 months late.

This year, I expected it to be a lot more interesting because of my Uni expectations but then it was decided that it's better to go in for the second intake so I have half a year of work and drawing to pass by. So that's why I haven't felt much of a new year feeling.

Now to my resolutions for this year 2012

-Revive my relationship with God. It's been dry for the last few months. I tell myself to start changing but I stay the same. It's that phase of desperation once again but I'll get through it.
-New laptop and camera FTW PLEASE. I'm still poor now. :D
- Draw 10x better than what I can draw now. Draw toes, lips, anatomy, guys, FANART =P
- Learn new awesome art programs
- Get by 20k pageviews by the end of the year
- Try sculpting and polymer clay
- Open a table at a convention
- Start my manga (two-way convenience store)
- And add a lot more things on this list as I go along

150- Reason behind my absentee

There you have it. The reason for my lack of blog posts. 

I am not working 2 jobs and drawing as much as I can right now.

Life as a non student is definitely tiring. 

There were some depressing moments here and there but I'll get over it eventually.

Happy Chinese New Year! I'll do a photo post when pictures are up.

Quick 1 and a half hour draw.

That's all I want to say xoxo

147- The proposal

Last, last weekend Leo(Esther's boyfriend), plan a trip. The weekend on a boat and planned to propose to my sister. It was a great time to get away from all the commotion. My life(hectic then, full of confusion and frustration). It was good to get away, to enjoy nature and to observe the still paintings that God has made and also eat good food. *grins*

Here are a few pictures, moments savoured.

Lovely picture

2 elder sisters. Can be a mean but nice. That's how we show love~

Leo and Esther

Group shot.

The second day was a costume party plan. Then, Leo planned to propose.

Mabel came along.

And she tried to push me off the boat knowing I can't swim for shiz.

Dan was the cutest penguin. Everyone wanted to cuddle him. 

We had tons of seafood for the BBQ. It was amazing.

 Leo looks slightly drunk here. LOL. We also caught crabs the next day!

Not knowing how to swim, me and mabes dared ourselves to get in there. There was a float anyway!

The water was horibbly disgusting and full of mud and seaweed down the bottom. It was like walking in freaking slime. Your feet literally sinks into the slime. I couldn't bear walking in it. D:

Eunice looking drunk and absolutely oranged face. haha. and Linn. That head thing is Leonard. At one point he started claiming the pinata to be a duplicate of him. He also figured out that he can take photos with us without moving his body so he handed us his pinata head.

Older women. =P

We played cranium~ I lost (More like Mabel and I lost)

More swimshots

BEHOLD! MY PRAWN SHELL TOWER

Birthday Girl

Also, I have officially graduated. After all the freaking long wait of going up stage and hearing the same prize award winner's names.

Breakfast in the morning before Graduation Night

Graduation~ and Graduated! Wheee

146 - i have something really good.

I seriously have something I want to post up but I haven't started drawing it yet.
It's because after all that hurt and frustration I have gotten so many ideas that I don't even have time to finish each and every one.

I guess heartbreaks has its' own benefits. Being in my neutral state wouldn't have brought me any of the ideas I'm getting now. It feels good being able to generate good stuff for once. I feel alive after a very damn long art block.

Also, watching new genres of anime made me realise how much more things I need to learn to draw. Going for a weekend boat trip has made me realise how beautiful this world is. How much more saturated my colors need to be on paper. How much harmony and unity there is in God's creation. How vast this earth is. And how her beauty can capture time,stopping the clock.

Now, I just want to express all of it on paper. Everything I feel.

145- Mission Complete :3

I have officially finished sitting for my WACE exams last Thursday. My equivalent A-levels.
No, I'm not confident about scoring.

Yes, I'm not naturally smart. What? Just because I have yellow toned skin and squinty eyes you presume I have an IQ consisting of more than one digit?! RACIST >:(
Heh.

So now, I have an unlimited amount of holiday free time used for doing happy things.
Like, drugs. clubbing.drinking.sex.sex.sex. I'm kidding, obviously.
There will be drinks though. I'll take lots of photos.

Anyway, since Rach and Jon finished their last exams a day after mine we has like a gathering to celebrate the end of exams.

Rach got her new laptop which was pink and the photo speaks for itself. I'd love to put up more photos but Rachael has it on her phone and her internet is capped. Sheeshh! Anyway, we...no they were gaming basically the whole day. I gamed occasionally but I didn't really feel like gaming so I picked up my pencil.

Before, we had KFC for lunch and cake later on. Man, I haven't eaten KFC in awhile, before we got to eat it. lol.

I stayed over in her house that night and we had plans to go out with her friend Victor the next day. AHHHH IT WAS A LONG DAY LAH. TYPING THIS SO MA FAN CAUSE SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED. Ffffff.

So Victor did some shopping and we got a bit of lunch + bubble tea later on. Mabes came in after all that and we scooted over to Timezone for some arcade games. (Black woman has discovered a new world) The last time I played an actual arcade game was in Malaysia. It wasn't very comfy back then but I really liked it this time. :)

While Victor was shopping for men's apparel, Rach and I went to try on some expensive dresses that we obviously wouldn't be able to afford (since we're jobless and soon to get a job and get paid).

I like this photo. :3

Today I just realised that I can no longer fit size 6.
Depressing. I think my chest area may have gotten bigger because I couldn't zip up the top part more than the bottom. NUUUUU There goes my size 6. :(
I'm probably a size 8 now. NVM. 8 is OK.

Best dressing room evar. It was huge.

After going home, I slept of course. XD
Then I got to cleaning my room. I have SO MUCH SPACE now. SO MUCH SPACE.
I LOVE IT.

So now, I don't have to clump all my art materials in a plastic box. Ugh.
Horrible days are over booyah!

This is how my art stuff are laid now. I'm gleaming over the neatness of my room.
Spacious fo' shizz.
SPACIOUS.
SPA
CIOUS

I still need to restick some old drawings I found in my pile of shit.
And also re-pattern that book shelf cardboard box.
Disgusting brown cardboard box.
I will make you pretty~

Now, I'm all alone because my parents just left for Malaysia.
And it's 3.36AM
I'll see you.
around.